All The Rage
MISSING
Item: My temper
Last seen: 2007
Description: Usually takes form in various degrees of shouting, excessive use of foul language, complete loss of rationality, & physical aggression towards inanimate objects
Reward: You get a NICE KICK IN THE ASS...how's that for a reward, bitch?? (lol)
Seriously though, I only realized a couple of days ago that I haven't lost my temper in a REALLY LONG TIME. It's been so long, I actually don't remember the last time I did; even 2007 seems a bit too recent, I'd say. That's supposed to be a good thing, I guess, but at the same time I can't help but think that this might be unhealthy, lol. I mean, how is it possible that for the past two years NO ONE & NOTHING has pissed me off enough for me to really explode?? Am I really that understanding or I've just become a huge pushover?? Or have I gotten so good at being passive aggressive that there's just no need for me to yell at anybody anymore?? How about one of you try provoking me till I lose it to see if I've still got it?? xD

Where In The World Is...
Staring into the beige-tinted light coming off my bedside lamp, I let out a smile, the most genuine one I've had all day. I thought, if only I could find the same warmth & assurance in those around me, maybe I'll let my guard down more often...
As hard as I try to not let the things I don't have in life bother me, they do. And it bugs me whenever that happens 'cause I feel like I'm losing sight of how fortunate I already am compared to everyone else. I feel ungrateful, needy, unreasonable, & from there things just spiral down. I wish, I really wish, that there'd be someone whom I'd feel comfortable showing my raw emotions to, with no embellishments or façades, someone whom I can unload my thoughts onto without worrying they'd be burdensome.
Is that too much to ask for??