6.30.2006
(Having a fanboy moment...=P)
Almost bought Teen People today (yes I know I'm way past being a teen), just 'cause Katharine's on the cover (she's just looking more & more beautiful *o*)...but I ended up not 'cause I didn't want the cashier to give me weird looks, lol. What I did do though, is listen to her first single "My Destiny" continuously for the past 2 days...& it doesn't seem like I'd stop anytime soon...=P Despite how uninspired & boring the song is, & the fact that her singing isn't all that great (her weakness of sounding nasally/whiny at the high notes persists; in fact it's quite evident in this song...), I still love it. There's something that's awfully catchy about it & I've been singing it to myself all day. As much as I've tried to not overplay the song, I just couldn't resist loading it onto my D-snap so I can listen to it on my way to work. Bah I hope I won't end up hating the song...xP
My McPheever sure is rising, hehe...didn't think it could get any higher, but it did. xD
6.19.2006
A Little Pain
Guess I really was just too occupied...I totally put it behind me, hid it so well that it took a dream to remind me of what I've been missing.
It was cruel. It was really cruel. I hate my subconscious.
Guess I really was just too occupied...I totally put it behind me, hid it so well that it took a dream to remind me of what I've been missing.
It was cruel. It was really cruel. I hate my subconscious.
6.15.2006
This Is Love
...enough said. xD
(Yes I know the stripes are of different colours...that's how I intend to wear them =P)
...enough said. xD
(Yes I know the stripes are of different colours...that's how I intend to wear them =P)
6.13.2006
Golden Goal
Was surfing the net looking at laptops (as I'm dying to own one =P), & look what I found!! Etched onto its cover is a complete chronology of the World Cup: the host countries, the respective champions, & all the balls used for the tournaments (since adidas¹ took over, anyway). It's also got other World Cup-related goodies like wallpapers & screensavers. At the end of this year's tournament, the name of the winning country will be added to the bottom center of the cover, along with your name & a serial number. To top things off, this special edition is limited to 600 copies. Sounds hot eh?? ;D
¹: Speaking of adidas, I really want a pair of Superstar II adicolor, you know, with the interchangeable stripes & all. Now THIS I can afford. =P I'm just deciding whether to get the red suedes or the blue denims...
Was surfing the net looking at laptops (as I'm dying to own one =P), & look what I found!! Etched onto its cover is a complete chronology of the World Cup: the host countries, the respective champions, & all the balls used for the tournaments (since adidas¹ took over, anyway). It's also got other World Cup-related goodies like wallpapers & screensavers. At the end of this year's tournament, the name of the winning country will be added to the bottom center of the cover, along with your name & a serial number. To top things off, this special edition is limited to 600 copies. Sounds hot eh?? ;D
¹: Speaking of adidas, I really want a pair of Superstar II adicolor, you know, with the interchangeable stripes & all. Now THIS I can afford. =P I'm just deciding whether to get the red suedes or the blue denims...
6.09.2006
Out Of Twigs & Clay
So I finally figured out why there's been excessive bird doodoo on my balcony & why there's deafening chirping every morning for the past week - there's a bird nest on my balcony!! I found out when I opened my door Wednesday afternoon (just for the heck of looking outside) & a bird flew right out from the door's direction. After further observation I now know that i) there are actually two birds living there, one male, one female (BIO150 really taught me how to tell between the sexes of birds =P); ii) they are sparrows; & iii) they are chicken shit, lol. My mom suggests that we destroy the nest so they'd have no place to come home to, but I find that a bit cruel so what I've been doing instead is (still somewhat sadistic) opening the door every once in a while to scare them away, lol. I'm hoping that eventually they'd learn this is not a safe place to live & would just abandon the nest.
The cutest thing though is now that they kinda know I do no harm, they'd still fly away after I open the door, but only towards the balcony railing where they'd sit & wait till I'm gone. Then they'd fly back to the nest immediately. This goes on for about a few times until either I get tired or they get too scared to come back for a few hours, lol.
The thought of keeping them did cross my mind, but sadly they're just dirtying up the place a lil too much...both pairs of sneakers I left out on the balcony are now ruined (even though I don't even wear them anymore)...=(
So I finally figured out why there's been excessive bird doodoo on my balcony & why there's deafening chirping every morning for the past week - there's a bird nest on my balcony!! I found out when I opened my door Wednesday afternoon (just for the heck of looking outside) & a bird flew right out from the door's direction. After further observation I now know that i) there are actually two birds living there, one male, one female (BIO150 really taught me how to tell between the sexes of birds =P); ii) they are sparrows; & iii) they are chicken shit, lol. My mom suggests that we destroy the nest so they'd have no place to come home to, but I find that a bit cruel so what I've been doing instead is (still somewhat sadistic) opening the door every once in a while to scare them away, lol. I'm hoping that eventually they'd learn this is not a safe place to live & would just abandon the nest.
The cutest thing though is now that they kinda know I do no harm, they'd still fly away after I open the door, but only towards the balcony railing where they'd sit & wait till I'm gone. Then they'd fly back to the nest immediately. This goes on for about a few times until either I get tired or they get too scared to come back for a few hours, lol.
The thought of keeping them did cross my mind, but sadly they're just dirtying up the place a lil too much...both pairs of sneakers I left out on the balcony are now ruined (even though I don't even wear them anymore)...=(
6.06.2006
Life Underground
A punk rocker stands outside a subway station, trying to get a free ticket from strangers.
"Hey, can you spare a subway ticket??"
People pass by as if he were invisible. A young lady soon comes his way.
"Hey, pretty lady, can I have a subway ticket??"
Like everyone else, the young lady passes by without even so much of a glance.
"Fine, I take it back, you're not pretty, 'cause you don't like to help people."
A young man who's just entering the station tries his best to contain his laughter.
--
A middle-aged man dressed in a business suit suddenly stands up from his seat in a subway car, & begins to talk out loud, to no one in particular.
"Believe in Jesus, or you'll burn in hell", he says.
No one seems to care. So the man starts to walk down the aisle, & re-seats himself opposite a young man. He then proceeds to look in the young man's direction, & says:
"You think the world is gonna get better, but let me tell you something, it's only gonna get worse & worse."
The young man is intrigued. He knows that this man is not like any other crazy weirdo that he sees a lil too often on the subway. And he knows that what this man has just said is true. So he acknowledges the man by looking at him in the eye & giving him an attentive smile. The man, seeing that someone's listening, continues his rant:
"All these people party away their lives, God is gonna hold them accountable. God is the winner."
The young man smiles again, this time for the ridiculousness of the statement. Of course God is the winner. You don't see us mortals having any sort of powers. But out of politeness, the young man says nothing, only nods agreeably as if he's taking the man's ideas in.
The man proceeds, "Sorry about my voice, I preach about Jesus a lot, which is why it's all scratchy. I just need water & that'll fix it right up."
The young man replies, "Sorry, I don't have any water", even though that's a blatant lie. An unopened bottle of water, in fact, sits safely in his bag. Suddenly the young man thinks, mockingly, "Geex, I'm lying to God's messenger, I'm definitely going to hell now."
The young man decides he's had enough. While the man in the business suit is surely entertaining, the young man doesn't want to be preached to anymore. So he stands up, wishes the man a nice day (to which he receives a reply of "God bless"), & gets off at the next station. Then he hops onto the next train & continues his way home.
A punk rocker stands outside a subway station, trying to get a free ticket from strangers.
"Hey, can you spare a subway ticket??"
People pass by as if he were invisible. A young lady soon comes his way.
"Hey, pretty lady, can I have a subway ticket??"
Like everyone else, the young lady passes by without even so much of a glance.
"Fine, I take it back, you're not pretty, 'cause you don't like to help people."
A young man who's just entering the station tries his best to contain his laughter.
--
A middle-aged man dressed in a business suit suddenly stands up from his seat in a subway car, & begins to talk out loud, to no one in particular.
"Believe in Jesus, or you'll burn in hell", he says.
No one seems to care. So the man starts to walk down the aisle, & re-seats himself opposite a young man. He then proceeds to look in the young man's direction, & says:
"You think the world is gonna get better, but let me tell you something, it's only gonna get worse & worse."
The young man is intrigued. He knows that this man is not like any other crazy weirdo that he sees a lil too often on the subway. And he knows that what this man has just said is true. So he acknowledges the man by looking at him in the eye & giving him an attentive smile. The man, seeing that someone's listening, continues his rant:
"All these people party away their lives, God is gonna hold them accountable. God is the winner."
The young man smiles again, this time for the ridiculousness of the statement. Of course God is the winner. You don't see us mortals having any sort of powers. But out of politeness, the young man says nothing, only nods agreeably as if he's taking the man's ideas in.
The man proceeds, "Sorry about my voice, I preach about Jesus a lot, which is why it's all scratchy. I just need water & that'll fix it right up."
The young man replies, "Sorry, I don't have any water", even though that's a blatant lie. An unopened bottle of water, in fact, sits safely in his bag. Suddenly the young man thinks, mockingly, "Geex, I'm lying to God's messenger, I'm definitely going to hell now."
The young man decides he's had enough. While the man in the business suit is surely entertaining, the young man doesn't want to be preached to anymore. So he stands up, wishes the man a nice day (to which he receives a reply of "God bless"), & gets off at the next station. Then he hops onto the next train & continues his way home.
6.05.2006
Stayed up 'til 2 last night chatting with Ness...we went from discussing my friendship dilemma to reminiscing about our childhood. Instantly we were back to the days where all of us would go to our grandma's every Friday as our moms played MJ. I remember us going "ghost hunting" in the stairs at the back of the building; I remember being really freaked out but would never admit to it. I remember them bringing me to the 7-Eleven downstairs to get me smoothies & candies that came with toys (Glico!! =D); & I remember us playing in the hallway, just next to the elevator, where my girl cousins would play jump ropes & I'd be amazed at how good they were at it. Ness also reminded me of this one time where I was mock-fighting/roughhousing with my cousin Michael (who's one year senior), & I got so violent I ended up biting his ear, lol. Now I don't actually remember this, but I can totally see myself doing it...xD Much of that angry beast is still alive inside me (hello, have you seen me drive?? xP)...
As we got to talk more & more, I realized that I've been blessed - I've had so many good people in my life. I might not have siblings, but I've been given cousins that were better than that, cousins that love me like real family. Now I see that this is the reason why whenever I'm asked if I felt lonely as an only child, my answer is always, "No, not really"; I really have my cousins to thank for that. I need to thank them for giving me the best childhood one can ever ask for. =)
It's sad that we have now gone separate ways, especially after many of us came to Canada. But it's comforting to know that I'm still in their hearts, & that they're in mine.
6.04.2006
Dark Tea
Having a down day today...interestingly enough, despite the debacle that is the past 2 weeks, I haven't felt this way at all until today (worried & frustrated, ya, but never sad); in fact, I've never been more motivated or positive about life...
As some of you already know, my dad has just undergone eye surgery recently, & now his vision is so blurry he can only recognize shadows. As a result he requires constant care, someone to watch over him in case he needs help. Thankfully, both my work & volunteer shifts have yet to begin, so I've been staying home everyday to look after him. The first week was quite hard, as I had to take him to the hospital pretty much everyday. The long drives to Sunnybrook plus (on average) the 7-hour days spent there nearly drove me insane. But I knew that no matter how horrible I felt, it could never compare to what my dad was feeling, so I just kept charging & never said a word. Seems to have worked real well, my positivity (which really is just the lack of open complains, lol), according to my mom, has helped the family stay strong. Glad to hear that. For the first time in my life, the tables have been turned around - my parents are now depending on me for their well-being. At first I was a bit worried about whether I was strong enough to handle it, but apparently, I'm stronger than I give myself credit for. So far things have been going rather swimmingly, & my whole family, including me, is surprised at how well I've done. Sure, I've always known that when crises arise, I would be there for my parents, but I've never had the chance to prove it. In fact I've questioned whether that's something I'd just like to believe or something that I'd actually do. Now I can honestly say it's the latter. And that feels really good.
Of course, there are times where I just wanna snap, but for starters, I don't have a reason to, nor do I have anyone to do it to. I also believe that by letting it all out it's admitting that I'm weak. I guess I've been so strong & independent all along that I no longer like to show people my weak side. In fact, I even pretend it doesn't exist at times. I know, we're humans, we all have moments of weakness, but I'd much prefer acknowledging it & dealing with it myself than to have to share them with others. Not that I don't trust any of you - I just don't wanna bother you guys with things that I believe I can handle just fine.
For those who've been asking about my dad, thank you for your concerns. He's doing great & is recovering at a steady rate; it'll just take a while for his vision to come back bit by bit, that's all. Feel free to drop by my place to hang out, I'll be home most of the time in the next 2 weeks. Although if you do, be prepared to go places with me to grab stuff. xP
P.S. With what lil time I have between taking care of my dad, picking up takeouts/preparing for dinner, getting ready for work + volunteer, & watching the French Open, I've been reading Anderson Cooper's memoir. I'm half way done & the repercussions are already severe - I've been dreaming about him every single night. xD Talk about crazy fandom, lol. But personal bias aside, it really is a great book. Review to come later when I'm finished.
Having a down day today...interestingly enough, despite the debacle that is the past 2 weeks, I haven't felt this way at all until today (worried & frustrated, ya, but never sad); in fact, I've never been more motivated or positive about life...
As some of you already know, my dad has just undergone eye surgery recently, & now his vision is so blurry he can only recognize shadows. As a result he requires constant care, someone to watch over him in case he needs help. Thankfully, both my work & volunteer shifts have yet to begin, so I've been staying home everyday to look after him. The first week was quite hard, as I had to take him to the hospital pretty much everyday. The long drives to Sunnybrook plus (on average) the 7-hour days spent there nearly drove me insane. But I knew that no matter how horrible I felt, it could never compare to what my dad was feeling, so I just kept charging & never said a word. Seems to have worked real well, my positivity (which really is just the lack of open complains, lol), according to my mom, has helped the family stay strong. Glad to hear that. For the first time in my life, the tables have been turned around - my parents are now depending on me for their well-being. At first I was a bit worried about whether I was strong enough to handle it, but apparently, I'm stronger than I give myself credit for. So far things have been going rather swimmingly, & my whole family, including me, is surprised at how well I've done. Sure, I've always known that when crises arise, I would be there for my parents, but I've never had the chance to prove it. In fact I've questioned whether that's something I'd just like to believe or something that I'd actually do. Now I can honestly say it's the latter. And that feels really good.
Of course, there are times where I just wanna snap, but for starters, I don't have a reason to, nor do I have anyone to do it to. I also believe that by letting it all out it's admitting that I'm weak. I guess I've been so strong & independent all along that I no longer like to show people my weak side. In fact, I even pretend it doesn't exist at times. I know, we're humans, we all have moments of weakness, but I'd much prefer acknowledging it & dealing with it myself than to have to share them with others. Not that I don't trust any of you - I just don't wanna bother you guys with things that I believe I can handle just fine.
For those who've been asking about my dad, thank you for your concerns. He's doing great & is recovering at a steady rate; it'll just take a while for his vision to come back bit by bit, that's all. Feel free to drop by my place to hang out, I'll be home most of the time in the next 2 weeks. Although if you do, be prepared to go places with me to grab stuff. xP
P.S. With what lil time I have between taking care of my dad, picking up takeouts/preparing for dinner, getting ready for work + volunteer, & watching the French Open, I've been reading Anderson Cooper's memoir. I'm half way done & the repercussions are already severe - I've been dreaming about him every single night. xD Talk about crazy fandom, lol. But personal bias aside, it really is a great book. Review to come later when I'm finished.
