6.30.2004
1 + 1 = 0
Funny, 'cause now I see that with you, I really CAN do anything - including getting over you.
Hahahahahaha. xD
Kakeru @ 10:15 +



6.28.2004
Boy, Interrupted
I have a really bad habit - I like to make things up, & then believe they're true. And they're always, ALWAYS bad things. I never use it to my advantage (ie. think of something good to make myself feel better), which would explain why sometimes, regardless of how shitty things might turn out, I'd still prefer finding out the truth over being left in the dark. 'Cause really, I'll just make it worse myself. WAY worse. And that, ladies & gentlemen, is exactly what I'm doing right now. And it doesn't feel good. Not one bit.
EDIT: ...although I must say I feel a lot better after posting about it. When did my blog become my shrink...
Kakeru @ 15:01 +



6.27.2004
Barenaked
Made a list of pros & cons
Seen what turns me off & on
Still not sure if I'm good to go
Then somebody says, "Doubt means no"
Day & night I think of you
And I can only wish you knew
Months of false hope & ceaseless pain
It's a surprise that I'm still sane
Everyone says you're bad for me
And I wonder how could it be
That when the whole world tells me so
I'm still stuck, at ground zero
Kakeru @ 11:15 +



6.25.2004
Formula For Fun
Right now, I sound like a toad. As if my normal voice doesn't sound horrible enough already. But yes, a toad. No I'm not sick. The word you're looking for here, is "Wonderland"...
So a few of us have planned this for weeks. We originally wanted to go on the 2nd week of June so there'd be less people, but unfortunately due to some difficulties we couldn't. Changes after changes, it was finally confirmed to be yesterday. Truth to be told, I was very excited about it; I looked forward to it more than any other year before, possibly due to the shitty days I've been having lately - I just needed something to cheer me up BIG TIME. Anyway, everyone first met up at my house, & then Keith drove us all there (thanks again man!!). We got to the park around 10:45, & since we already got our tickets beforehand (now's the time to thank Jenn), we didn't have to wait long before getting in. I was told that "Tomb Raider" has the longest lineup (as it's the newest addition), so I suggested we go there first. And we did. After 35 minutes or so (which wasn't TOO bad), we got on. And when we came down, we were all in pain. xP I, for one, managed to hit my head against some metal pole that was supposed to be a guard of some kind. It hurt - I could hear myself say "ow" despite the noisy winds generated by the ride. There's actually a bump there now, which I don't necessarily enjoy. =P The others, on the other hand, either hurt their ears or their chins. It was just a dangerous ride in general. Plus, it wasn't that great, all of us left unsatisfied...
Next we went on "Top Gun", since it was right next to "Tomb Raider". Now if my memory serves me correct, that was the longest line we've had for the whole day - I'd say about an hour or so. But it wasn't half-bad; we chatted throughout, pretty much non-stop, about absolutely anything. That's also when I shocked everybody by proposing my "foreplay" analogy (lol I know you all loved it!! =P). The ride was pretty much the same as usual, although it did get us a lil bit more psyched since "Tomb Raider" was just ass.
After the 2 rides, it was already time to eat. So we grabbed some oily, overpriced pizzas & ate. That didn't take long, but damn I could feel myself burning under the boiling hot sun. Then we went on "Vortex", which surprisingly, had a very short line that just kept moving. So we got on in no time, & man, it was awesome. Somehow it was better than I remembered it to be...actually, better than it's ever been for me. Loved it, moved on to "The Fly", funny/hilarious as always (long story behind that one). Then we decided it was time to get wet. So we started lining up for "White Water Canyon". Geex, was that a stupid choice. Apparently, the scorching sunny weather we were having was hardly indication of what's to come next. By the time we got on, the sky was already all covered with clouds. And to make things worse, none of us had any idea how cold the water was UNTIL we were soaked by it. That's when we knew we were in trouble, & thanks to my lovely friends who all conspired to get ME wet, I did. Man it was cold...but I handled okay. The others were freezing though, & since I brought a jacket along with me, I decided to give it to Carmen as a gentleman gesture...=P After that painful experience we immediately dropped the thought of going on to "Timberwolf Falls", which we were all grateful for, I'm sure. So we went on a few other rides instead, & for "SkyRider", we took two separate coasters so the 4 of us could all try sitting in the very first seats (stands??). It was one kick-ass ride.
Nothing though, could beat "The Bat". It's always been my favourite, & every year I'd pray to get on to the very back for the ultimate experience. But since where you sit really depends on the people who got on before you, it really is a game of luck. And LUCKILY (wow when was the last time luck was on my side??), Jenn & I got to sit at the back. I could feel the excitement building up in me right then & there. And I came down feeling like I had a mini-orgasm (lol). It was just so fucking awesome. Even Jenn couldn't stop talking about how great it was. I'd do anything to have another go.
After that the 4 of us separated, Keith & Cars wanted their lil kiddy rides =P, so Jenn & I were left alone to brave the "Drop Zone" It was good, but nothing spectacular. Not to mention it was already raining when we went up. Next we did "Night Mares" just for the heck of it. And then we went on our very last ride, "Cliffhanger". The rain was pouring by then, but it didn't dim our spirits. And since it was the very last ride of the day (the park was closing), I think they made the program a bit longer just for us. It was the longest one I've ever been on & despite the dirty water that kept pouring back onto us, it was fantastic. I really enjoyed it this year, even though it was freezing (literally we were all shivering) & I couldn't wait to get back to the car. =P
We were all starving when we got out, so we sped to Kelsey's for dinner. Interestingly enough, there was one right beside the park, so we went there instead of the one near my house (as originally planned). The food was good, & I was actually hungry enough to finish everything (& then some). Knowing my insatiable appetite, my friends weren't surprised...but I was. =P Damn how do I get to stay so skinny??
The day still wasn't over though. Next we headed back to my house & I gave my friends a tour of the new place. I didn't expect them to stay, really, since they all had plans the day after. But they did. And I'm glad they did. We had fun watching an hour of CSI, & again, making jokes about everything. Finally we took some dumb pictures (which I need to see after they've been developed) & called it a day.
And now I would like to thank my friends who gave me such a wonderful experience (ha no pun intended). It's nice to be reminded that I still have a lot of things to be thankful for. Weee. =)
P.S. Somewhere between rides we had funnel cake. And despite the fact that I hate strawberries, it was still orgasmic. It was way too small though.
Kakeru @ 10:05 +



6.23.2004
Keeping It Real
Watching Germany getting kicked out of the Euro 2004 tournament has made me realize one thing - when it comes to something I really care about, no matter how hopeless the ending may seem, no matter how painful it would be for me, I'd still hold on to it 'till the very end. Stubborn, they call it; I say stupid.
Think of it the good way - now I no longer have to care who wins. =P Though I'm kinda hoping the Czechs would...
Kakeru @ 16:37 +



6.22.2004
Extreme Makeover
No, you didn't enter the wrong URL or visit the wrong site...this IS Kakki's blog. That's right, after almost 2 years of sticking with the same (ugly) layout, I finally got my lazy ass up & worked on this for a good ol' 2 to 3 hours. Most of it was spent on retouching the picture, which was one I took when I was in Japan back in 2001. I've named this version "TOKYO NIGHTS", inspired by the Utada Hikaru song of the same name. =) It's actually a big fat lie 'cause the pic you see up there is Osaka, not Tokyo, haha...but who cares. =P I'm also planning to change my comment box's scheme (no more "venus flytrap"...<sniff>), but that'll come later...I think I've done enough for the day.
P.S. Thank God for titled entries. Trying to fix some of them in order to fit the new look was so much easier just by searching using the titles as keywords...
EDIT: Shit I just realized I forgot to take a screenshot of my old layout before changing it!! DAMNIT!!
Kakeru @ 12:42 +



6.20.2004
Internal Bleeding Strawberry
Sometimes, when things between people get so awkward, one might say "you could cut the tension with a knife". This time though, I think the knife missed big time & jabbed right into my heart. Ouch.
On a brighter note, I've found a way to make things a lil bit easier for me. It's mean, but it works; it's low, but it's not like I haven't hit rock bottom already. Four little letters, one simple word, work magic.
Kakeru @ 13:23 +



6.17.2004
Get A Clue!
Maybe if you weren't such a bitch to handle, people wouldn't have to go such distance to avoid you.
EDIT: Damn, apparently now I have another person to stay away from (as if I haven't been doing that already...<rolls eyes>). What's with me & the annoying/needy kind??
Kakeru @ 15:12 +



6.13.2004
Anger Management
Ever tried squeezing out the contents of an aerosol can all at once?? It's fun. ;D (Don't ask)
Kakeru @ 21:50 +



6.10.2004
#1.5
Went to Woodside (Centre...the OTHER Woodside =P) after getting my haircut today...paid its Chapters a visit to check out the books on sale. And guess what was at the reference section?? A friggin' LSAT study guide!! Immediately got my hands on it, started flipping through as excitement flooded through my veins. Unfortunately, there was only one copy left & it was in poor condition, so I couldn't bring myself to buy it...x_x Ended up getting an advanced German study guide instead (need to keep it up for my trip next year!!). Just to let everyone know, I have not completely given up on becoming a lawyer yet...at the back of my mind there's always this spark of hope that tells me, maybe one day, I will get paid for asking questions in a court room (wow that just made the profession sound all so simple, didn't it...lol). It's not like I can't do it...I just chose not to. Science is at the top of my list, & I guess not being able to buy the LSAT guide is a sign from God telling me to study for the MCAT instead. =P Bah, why do we always want what we can't have...
Kakeru @ 15:58 +



6.09.2004
Back At One
Last year, I was hopeless. This year, I'm still hopeless. But the important thing is that I didn't stay where I was; instead, I walked a full circle & came back to where I started.
Now is that better or worse??
Kakeru @ 02:05 +



6.02.2004
Going Down
Oh God, I just witnessed the saddest thing ever. I was looking outside my room doors to check if the sofa guy's here, then I noticed a teeny tiny mouse wandering around on my balcony. It was so cute & small that I decided to take a picture of it & put it up here. Unfortunately, I couldn't get a good shot since it was just way too tiny (& I couldn't get close or open my doors...I wouldn't want it roaming free in my house!!). So I kept staring at it, while it was having fun exploring the edge of my balcony. And then, the one thing I feared the most happened...
It plunged to its death. x_x I ran out to check if it was just hanging on the walls, & well, it wasn't...I think it landed on my car which was parked very close to the balcony a level below. Ouch.
Kakeru @ 14:46 +



6.01.2004
Fear Of The Unknown
(This would definitely apply to you, since you're reading mine right now)
Do you ever feel that, by reading someone's blog regularly, you'd get to know the author quite well, even if you've never met him/her in person?? The reason I'm bringing this up is because lately, I've been reading the blog of a friend's friend. I don't know her, she doesn't know me, but we share one thing in common...well at least one, a big one too if I might add. Anyway, she's someone that I used to be intimidated of...but when I actually found the guts to read about her life from top to bottom (I literally read every entry), not only did she seem a lot less threatening, I even felt sympathetic towards her. And now it appears that I'm hooked onto reading it; along with my other friends' blogs, I check hers everyday. Isn't that interesting.
That's the thing about publishing your life publicly on the internet - you never know who's reading.
Kakeru @ 15:50 +


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