Last Words
Just can't help posting this...<sniff>
"Later that day, I got to thinking about relationships:
There are those that open you up to something new and exotic;
Those that are old and familiar;
Those that bring up lots of questions;
Those that bring you somewhere unexpected;
Those that bring you far from where you started;
And those that bring you back.
But the most exciting, challenging, and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."
~ Carrie, Sex and the City series finale

Fool Me Twice...
You know what...I think I've had enough. I'm tired of having my emotions hung on a thread whenever something happens or doesn't happen. I really don't think it'll be worth it in the end anyway. It doesn't mean I'm giving up...it's just that I won't be working for it anymore. I'll be the same old me who'll just sit & wait for food to be fed directly into my mouth. Yes that's what I'll be. I've been an expert at it for 20 years, after all.
P.S. I even got sick from it. Real, physical sickness. That's how pathetic this is getting.

Kaboom!
Usually, I like to keep my feet on the ground. I think that, by not putting myself into situations where I expect too much of myself or of others, I'll be safe from harm. Unfortunately, I never know when to stop. I go so far, I end up digging a hole for myself to fall into. And that's exactly what's happening now - I'm suffering from self-inflicted, simply unnecessary depression. If someone can tell me why I'm stupid/crazy/disgusting like that, it'd be very much appreciated.

Bonus Or Bogus?
Few years ago, an interesting trend began in the HKPop industry - to lure people back into buying legitimate CDs, record companies started to give a brand new look to their products. Some had crazy packages (re: Kelly's "Paisley Galaxy"), some came with the most unrelated of "gifts" (lol how many of you actually used the SK-II mask that came with one of Sammi's albums?? xD), and most importantly (& what I like the most), some included a VCD that contained music videos of the album tracks (there was also the idea of 2nd edition...but I know that peeves a lot of fans, including me, so let's not talk about it =P). Notice that these 3 are not exclusive of one another; in fact, it's quite often that all 3 tricks are performed simultaneously.
Why am I mentioning this?? Well at first I thought it was very sad of the HKPop industry to have to go such distance to sell petty amounts of albums. Little did I know that this would translate into my bigger passion, aka the JPop business. Nowadays, every single album comes with a DVD!! What on Earth is going on here?? What bothers me even more is that even the old albums are being re-released to accompany this trend (eg. DAI's "Do The Best", Amuro's "181920")!! As big as the DVD fan that I am (I blame my dad), I still find this fad hard to digest...x_x CD+DVD albums cost more, & some of the DVD content just aren't good (I'm sorry "Every Best Single 2", your DVD bored the crap outta me). It's unfortunate that this will most likely continue, since it seems to be working at the moment. But what happens when this fails too?? CDs that automatically leech onto you upon contact?? xP

Moments
A wedding banquet. A boring one, to be more exact. Two friends find each other, much to their relief. One's formally dressed; the other in jeans & sweats. After meeting up, the two decide to leave the restaurant & take a walk to have a break from hell. One holds the other by the arm, & soon they are cuddling in the cold. One begins to tell the other about his childhood, but before he could finish, an absolutely irrelevant, unimportant figure comes by to disturb the scene. That though, does not stop the friends from getting closer. Soon they are walking hand in hand, under the glistening moonlight...
My dreams are usually psychic...is this one too??

My Bottom Line
I have something that I really really want to vent about right now, it's been bugging me all day, yet I don't know how to put it into words. It's just something that I have very strong feelings about, always has been, always will be. Maybe I'll edit this post later & talk about it in more details. For now, I just wanna note down this moment in time when I'm totally fed up with my own stupid actions & ridiculous mindset. Argh, curiosity kills the cat, indeed.

Parasite Eve
"Well, she's not ugly...but she's not drop-dead gorgeous either."
Right on. Had to see with my own eyes though. Thank God something else came along to divert my attention...

Since I Still Have Brain Cells Left...
Ich versuchte
ein Gedicht
auf Deutsch zu schreiben
aber
ich konnte nicht
weil ich kein Dichter
bin
(lol give me a break here, it's 15 minutes before my German test, I'm trying really hard to avoid studying...)
EDIT: The test turned out to be awfully easy, except the adjective endings part. I tell you, that's the most evil thing about German grammar. I could see the frustration on everyone's faces while doing it (my prof actually put it as the FIRST question...I was smart enough to skip it & do the other stuff first 'cause I knew it'd kill my spirit)...unfortunately I could not see my own, but I was literally pulling my hair as I was going crazy trying to figure out the cases of the nouns. Argh.
Something funny came out of the test though...for the composition part, one of the questions asked what I'd do if I became the president of the States...& I said, "Ich würde die USA freundlicher machen." xD (lol use AltaVista to translate it or something, it's a good one...=P)