10.25.2003
Ever After
Just got home from my mom's colleague's wedding...well, the banquet part at least. It was the first time I've been to one since I came to Canada, so that's quite a while. I missed the joyfulness & festivity of it all; the food though, could've been a lil better. =P Anyway, those who've known me for long will know that I'm very anti-marriage - I do not believe in it & therefore I've never planned to tie the knot. While tonight failed to change my views, it did strengthen my faith in love a lil. Just a lil...enough to make me think that, maybe my dream will one day come true. And I love how, after these 3 months, that dream does in fact seem all the more plausible.
Just got home from my mom's colleague's wedding...well, the banquet part at least. It was the first time I've been to one since I came to Canada, so that's quite a while. I missed the joyfulness & festivity of it all; the food though, could've been a lil better. =P Anyway, those who've known me for long will know that I'm very anti-marriage - I do not believe in it & therefore I've never planned to tie the knot. While tonight failed to change my views, it did strengthen my faith in love a lil. Just a lil...enough to make me think that, maybe my dream will one day come true. And I love how, after these 3 months, that dream does in fact seem all the more plausible.
10.23.2003
"And As A Sign Of Our Appreciation..."
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10.20.2003
My Past's Present
Major discovery of the day (or year, even): my "ex" has a blog. Never thought MUF would be the type to have one (come to think of it, it's probably more of a job requirement...but still, it remains active & updated!!)...I'm so shocked, I actually want to leave a comment on it...xD (note: bitter "breakup", we haven't really talked since high school ended, so leaving a message would be a BIG deal =P) Oh this is just so good...
Major discovery of the day (or year, even): my "ex" has a blog. Never thought MUF would be the type to have one (come to think of it, it's probably more of a job requirement...but still, it remains active & updated!!)...I'm so shocked, I actually want to leave a comment on it...xD (note: bitter "breakup", we haven't really talked since high school ended, so leaving a message would be a BIG deal =P) Oh this is just so good...
10.10.2003
Come What May
I'm at St. Mike's' library right now, surfing aimlessly until my German class starts at 12. Then I decided, might as well update my blog, since I haven't done so for quite some time. Well, so much has happened in the past week, I don't even know where to begin. My mind hasn't been able to function properly these few days, I can't control my thoughts, I can't control my actions, & I can't control my emotions. Why the mental paralysis, you ask?? I can't really say...stress has definitely got to do with it (considering that I have a quiz, a composition, a lab, an essay, & 2 midterms due next week), but most importantly, my love life just took a drastic turn & things are starting to move really quickly. And I can't catch up. I want to, but my insecurity is holding me back. I will get there though...to that person out there, I know that I haven't been acting my best lately, I know that I more or less scared you away on Wednesday, & I want to tell you that I'm really sorry for doing so. It's just that there are some feelings that I must resolve before we can move forward. But I truly enjoy your company, whether in person or online. I feel so much better just knowing that you're watching me, that you care for my existence, & that you want to learn more about me. I want to do the same for you, & trust me, I will. Just give me some time & things will happen for us, I'm sure. Right now, please, please, don't back down. We've got lots of days ahead of us.
I'm at St. Mike's' library right now, surfing aimlessly until my German class starts at 12. Then I decided, might as well update my blog, since I haven't done so for quite some time. Well, so much has happened in the past week, I don't even know where to begin. My mind hasn't been able to function properly these few days, I can't control my thoughts, I can't control my actions, & I can't control my emotions. Why the mental paralysis, you ask?? I can't really say...stress has definitely got to do with it (considering that I have a quiz, a composition, a lab, an essay, & 2 midterms due next week), but most importantly, my love life just took a drastic turn & things are starting to move really quickly. And I can't catch up. I want to, but my insecurity is holding me back. I will get there though...to that person out there, I know that I haven't been acting my best lately, I know that I more or less scared you away on Wednesday, & I want to tell you that I'm really sorry for doing so. It's just that there are some feelings that I must resolve before we can move forward. But I truly enjoy your company, whether in person or online. I feel so much better just knowing that you're watching me, that you care for my existence, & that you want to learn more about me. I want to do the same for you, & trust me, I will. Just give me some time & things will happen for us, I'm sure. Right now, please, please, don't back down. We've got lots of days ahead of us.
10.03.2003
The Clothes Don't Fit
You & I obviously don't connect...in ways more than one. It's kinda sad because I really thought we could go somewhere, somewhere that I've always believed we'd end up in.
Too bad. You'll go your way & I'll go mine.
You & I obviously don't connect...in ways more than one. It's kinda sad because I really thought we could go somewhere, somewhere that I've always believed we'd end up in.
Too bad. You'll go your way & I'll go mine.
