No Longer Fresh
Checking my first term physics notes reminds me of how great university was when it was still brand new. Everything was cool...the people, the lecture halls, the atmosphere, heck, even the professors seemed omnipotent. Honestly, I don't know what the hell happened, but things just started fucking up after Christmas. I think it's the change in my attitude that caused the downhill slide. Having done well in the first 4 months, I realized that there was no need to work to my maximum potential - I could still get into my program of choice without giving up TV, or more importantly, my computer. So I did exactly that, & well, the past 3 weeks have been brutal. Trust me, trying to learn a term's work in 2 days is not necessarily an ideal way to spend a weekend. =P But I survived...& I can say this nice & proud.
Goodbye first year. It was fun while it lasted.

Distance
Even if I don't get to see you, at least I know we'll be closer together when I'm downtown...

Fifty Percent
Man, that chem exam was a joke. I better get an A or else I'll seriously have to get my brain checked. =P It was so good that it made the useless lectures, annoying quizzes, boring tutorials, & horrid term tests all worth it. And surprise, my favourite reaction, oxymercuration, WAS on the exam...can I say awesome?? =D
10:33 - Bye KoB. I wish we could've talked...but I guess you just can't always have everything that you want. It was nice seeing you again though. I'll keep you in mind...all the way to September.

Curse Lifted
Right now, I have this eerie feeling of calmness inside me. I actually feel that I will do well on my chem exam tomorrow despite my last-minute learning. And for the very first time, I DON'T want one more day to study. What I want instead is to get it over with asap 'cause I'm just so sicked & tired of all these reactions. Goodbye oxymercuration...see you again in January.

You Go Your Way
Shouldn't have crossed the road...shouldn't have crossed the road...SHOULDN'T HAVE CROSSED THE ROAD!! x_x

24
I clearly suffer from the "One More Day" Syndrome. Everytime I have a test or an exam, no matter how early (or late) I begin my studying, I always wish there was, well, just one more day to study. This is exactly what's happening to me now...I seriously don't think I have enough time to finish reviewing all my notes + labs for my bio exam tomorrow. God help me...ToT

He Scores!
Psych exam was interesting...I mean, exam in a hockey rink?? That's a first (loved it though...it just felt so cool, hehe). =P Anyway, the exam turned out to be much easier than I expected, thank God. I almost went crazy yesterday freaking out over it, and I didn't get much sleep either 'cause I was just way too stressed. Now though, I'm just super happy...I'm one-fifth closer to freedom!! =D

Rapid Eye Movement
I've been wanting to blog about this the whole day, trying to think of a special, interesting manner of presenting it...but I guess there's just no way I can think properly after 800 pages of psychology. So here it is, in its simplest, unmodified form:
You would look so fucking amazing on a motorcycle, really. Please learn if you don't already know how. xD

Sigma
April 18, 2002 ~ April 17, 2003
Best times: the first 3 months of university
Worst times: the 2 months of summer
Best decision: getting an MD player
     1st runner-up: getting a new haircut
     2nd runner-up: starting a blog
Proudest moment: getting the letter of acceptance from U of T
Most relieved moment: passing my G test
Most embarrassing moment: the subway ride after my 3rd calculus test
Most life-changing moment: taking my braces off
Biggest regret: not finishing the biotech project
Most pleasant surprise: doing well in university
     1st runner-up: finally moving
     2nd runner-up: gaining weight
Most unpleasant surprise: my now far-from-perfect memory
Most cherished piece of new possession: my MD player
     1st runner-up: my G driver's licence
     2nd runner-up: my OSSD
Most wanted: a relationship
Most unwanted: two messy relationships
Most changed: my argumentative personality
Least changed: my easily-intimidated personality

Most thankful for: everyone, everything

Two Days Notice
Sweet. So far, six people have said "happy birthday" to me...three of which, I have never met in real life. =P I don't know...those who've been talking to me lately will know that I still don't feel comfortable about turning 20. FYI, I've been calling it the "quarter-life" crisis, lol. Really, it just feels like I haven't done anything significant nor have I achieved any of the goals that I've had as a lil kid. Hopefully I'll feel better about it when I get all my cards & presents. =P Or maybe I should just get dead-drunk & leave all pessimistic thoughts behind...
Oh by the way...my birthday isn't until Friday. You gotta thank ICQ for giving everyone an early reminder though, hehe.

Let It Grow
I've only had two reading weeks so far (well, in the middle of the 2nd one right now), but I've already developed this retarded and awfully weird ritual - that would be not cutting my nails for the whole nine days. The rationale behind it?? There isn't one...or I'm still trying to figure it out.

Say My Name
Maybe you really wanted to talk...but it's too late now buddy. It's nice to see that we've finally acknowledged each other's existence though...after all, both of us are kinda hard to miss. I guess we could be friends - if we try hard enough to at least look each other in the eye, that is.

Honk Honk
There's one thing I really hate about being an U of T student - having to wake up at 6 every time you want to apply for your courses. No, the bad part is not about waking up early, I have no (or very little) problem with that; the point is the server gets EXTREMELY crowded so it takes about 2 to 3 hours in order to punch in one stupid course code.
Oh great, now I'm kicked out 'cause my account has been "idle" for too long...I'm doing nothing 'cause I CAN'T do anything you retards!!

Surreal
Last night, I dreamt that we were together. Somehow though, I was conscious enough to know that it was only a dream...so when I woke up, there was no disappointment, only a small sigh of "what-could-have-been". My indecisiveness has cost me a relationship again...boo, will I ever learn??

Death On Arrival
My dad bought me the third season of Friends on DVD. Good, now I finally have something to do during my study week.
Wait...shouldn't I be studying?? =P

Damn Hormones
My neck is hurting again. I must have really, REALLY bad sleeping positions. Geebus.
What a day. It was as though the river of depression just flooded and drowned me in it. I don't think I've been this upset, & upset for this long, since the beginning of the school year. Right now I still don't feel good...fucking 10 hours of frowning is just so not me. Why can't somebody just cheer me up...or die trying, at least...

See Ya
It seems like when I first tell my friends that I'll be moving, their immediate reaction is always "where??", and then "why??", with a tone that implies "awww...don't leave!!". It got me wondering...am I really that important of a friend, or I'm just so lazy that everyone thinks I'll lose contact with them?? =P

Hang In There
Some things are just meant to be yours.
Last week, I lost my pencil case. Everything was gone, including pens, rulers, and even my calculator. Just found out today though that my New College black pen, somehow, remained. I guess I took it out for something but forgot to put it back...which turned out to be a good thing.
I don't know, to me, this pen carries some significant meaning. It marked the beginning of my university career, first of all; and now, it means even more to me after everything that happened between KoB & I.
Oh how I wish this was another omen, lol.

The Sequel
Now's the time for the TAs...

CHM139H
Jason - So scary when he doesn't smile. So nice when he does smile. So helpful...that's an always. ^^
Tary - The hottest TA in town...all the girls drool over him. Gives such easy marks...I might as well love him too. =P

PHY138Y
Doug - Acts dumb but really isn't. Thanks for all the easy quizzes.
Natalia - Bitch. Go learn English.

CHM138H
Ann - Intimidating, but good at explaining. I still hate my tutorial though.
Shadi - So great. Always smiling. I love asking her for help, hehe. Can't believe she's getting her Ph.D. at such a young age...

MAT135Y
Nan-Kuo - You rule, Ms. Ho. Go Chinese!!

BIO150Y
Enza - ...and the best TA of the year award goes to...Vincenza Pontieri!! Seriously, she's perfect. Smart, nice, responsible, easy, can't ask for more. We actually became friends too...=P

So that's my year in review. Overall, it was spectacular. Loved it, loved it, loved it...university is just so awesome. The only thing I didn't like were the frustrating people that I had to put up with (okay, maybe that AND physics labs)...but heck, whatever, I'm still as happy as always. No complains. =D

Time To Go
It's the end of the school year (well, almost), so here's a lil review of mine on my profs (of which was written, if you must know, during my mind-numbing calculus lecture...lol).

BIO150Y
Barrett - Cocky. He thinks we're all dumb. But damn it, he really is smart & knowledgeable. His way of pronouncing "EE-volution" still bugs me.
Rowe - THE BEST. Thought he was boring at first, but man, did he get it on. I can't wait for his comeback next week.
Agrawal - I don't see why ppl like him so much. He was awesome at explaining, but bored the shitty days out of me. And if it weren't for him, my A+ average in bio would've been so safe...
Cyr - Nothing special, not good, not bad. I have no recollections of her lectures since they pretty much just flew pass my head.
Jefferies - Love his accent, but that's pretty much all I like about him. His stuff wasn't bad, since I love geography...how he said "amino acid" though, traumatized me forever. And he sure loves to make a big deal out of ppl who talk during lectures.

CHM139H
Goh - BORING but super easy. It's one of those love-hate relationships.
Browning - All the girls love him. Heck, MOST of the guys love him (me included). "It's getting hot in herre"...lol.

PHY138Y
Savaria - Burn in hell.
Tawfiq - See you in hell.
Drake - Boring as hell.
Trischuk - Erm...I didn't even go to lectures, hell. =P

CHM138H
Winnik - Weird. But so enthusiastic about what he teaches...always so happy. I like that. ^^
Browning - Actually better as an orgo prof. Even more likable.

MAT135Y
LeBlanc - Oh how I love LeBlanc. Honestly, the course would've been so bad without him. I actually loved calc in the beginning 'cause of him (then as the stuff got harder...). I sure will miss his "good question"s & "you're welcome"s...=(

PSY100Y
Wall - Go Marty!! Such a great lecturer & ever so knowledgeable. He's definitely someone I look up to.

Bird Cage
It was weird...I hugged my mom so tight that my arms were going numb. What's even weirder was that she kept patting me, as if I was the one who needed comfort. Well, maybe I was.
She said she's tired...I am too. Eight years of broken marriage don't just affect the two parties ya know.

Rest In Peace
So sad...I can't believe Leslie Cheung is dead. I was never a big fan of his, but I grew up to his music..."Monica" anyone??
I still can't seem to accept the fact that he killed himself...God, how I wish this was only April fool's...ToT