3.31.2003
Pick A Word
Bored...'cause I don't want to sit & work on orgo for 3 hours straight.
Nervous...'cause I don't want to screw up another chem test.
Numb...'cause I don't want to do anything in general.
Annoyed...'cause I don't want to stay in this mess.
Sad...'cause I don't want to keep thinking about you.
Bored...'cause I don't want to sit & work on orgo for 3 hours straight.
Nervous...'cause I don't want to screw up another chem test.
Numb...'cause I don't want to do anything in general.
Annoyed...'cause I don't want to stay in this mess.
Sad...'cause I don't want to keep thinking about you.
3.29.2003
So, How's Life?
I have no idea why I'm upset. I don't think I still have feelings for you...if I do, I really should shoot myself right now. I guess I feel sorry for you being in a boring, pathetic relationship. Then again, you brought this unto yourself, you big fucking liar. I can't wait to go to your wedding you know. Please, oh please, invite me.
I have no idea why I'm upset. I don't think I still have feelings for you...if I do, I really should shoot myself right now. I guess I feel sorry for you being in a boring, pathetic relationship. Then again, you brought this unto yourself, you big fucking liar. I can't wait to go to your wedding you know. Please, oh please, invite me.
3.26.2003
Deindividuation
Fuck beige baseball caps. Over my dead body, will you see me wearing one. <scoffs>
Fuck beige baseball caps. Over my dead body, will you see me wearing one. <scoffs>
3.24.2003
Now Spit
I've decided to take German in summer school. Why?? I don't really know...O_o Well I guess first of all, I wanna get my humanities credit over with asap...then there's the idea that I'll be going to Germany for WYD in 2005, so might as well learn a word or two. When I was in HK, I loved learning new languages over the summer (re: my Japanese learning experience), & in a way, this is bringing me back to those days...so I'm a lil excited (what a nerd =P). The difference though is now I'll have to pay 800 bucks + sit through 8 hours of lecture every single week. Gur. x_x
I've decided to take German in summer school. Why?? I don't really know...O_o Well I guess first of all, I wanna get my humanities credit over with asap...then there's the idea that I'll be going to Germany for WYD in 2005, so might as well learn a word or two. When I was in HK, I loved learning new languages over the summer (re: my Japanese learning experience), & in a way, this is bringing me back to those days...so I'm a lil excited (what a nerd =P). The difference though is now I'll have to pay 800 bucks + sit through 8 hours of lecture every single week. Gur. x_x
3.23.2003
Stutter
My stereo system of 12 years is finally failing me. Old it might be, but the sound's still awesome. However, lately I've noticed that it just keeps skipping, especially after extended usage (an example would be this weekend, where I'm having one of those "nostalgic" moments that I just HAVE to listen to every single album I own). Maybe I should clean it with one of those special CDs (though I don't remember where I put it)...or just wait 'till I move so I can finally use the "new" stereo that's been sitting in the basement for at least a year. =P
My stereo system of 12 years is finally failing me. Old it might be, but the sound's still awesome. However, lately I've noticed that it just keeps skipping, especially after extended usage (an example would be this weekend, where I'm having one of those "nostalgic" moments that I just HAVE to listen to every single album I own). Maybe I should clean it with one of those special CDs (though I don't remember where I put it)...or just wait 'till I move so I can finally use the "new" stereo that's been sitting in the basement for at least a year. =P
3.22.2003
One In A Million
Damnit I want these...ToT Too bad I don't live in Japan...
Damnit I want these...ToT Too bad I don't live in Japan...
Come Again
Now that I think about what happened yesterday, it really doesn't matter whether you felt the same way or not. I'm just thankful for having you there, being such a great sport, by doing things that I've always wanted you to do. It sure made me feel special...thanks. ^^
Now that I think about what happened yesterday, it really doesn't matter whether you felt the same way or not. I'm just thankful for having you there, being such a great sport, by doing things that I've always wanted you to do. It sure made me feel special...thanks. ^^
3.20.2003
Because Of You
...I completely couldn't hear the hot dog vender calling me.
...I sat outside to eat despite the gloomy weather.
...I almost forgot to take my umbrella after finishing lunch.
...I am now smiling like an idiot.
...I completely couldn't hear the hot dog vender calling me.
...I sat outside to eat despite the gloomy weather.
...I almost forgot to take my umbrella after finishing lunch.
...I am now smiling like an idiot.
3.19.2003
The Fish & The Bear Claw
Seems like confusion is the theme of the week. First, came the program-choosing dilemma. Then there was a chem quiz that just left me sitting with my mouth open. And now, after all this time, all these struggles, I actually feel that my passion is for black, not for blue. Gee.
Seems like confusion is the theme of the week. First, came the program-choosing dilemma. Then there was a chem quiz that just left me sitting with my mouth open. And now, after all this time, all these struggles, I actually feel that my passion is for black, not for blue. Gee.
3.18.2003
Lottery Time
Fuck. I had 25% chances of getting the "A BALLADS" cover that I DIDN'T want (upper left). 1 outta 4, I must repeat. Unlike "A BEST", this time I actually like most of the covers, with the exception of one. Yet I still hit the jackpot. Fuck!!
![[A BALLADS - First Edition]](aballadscovers.jpg)
Fuck. I had 25% chances of getting the "A BALLADS" cover that I DIDN'T want (upper left). 1 outta 4, I must repeat. Unlike "A BEST", this time I actually like most of the covers, with the exception of one. Yet I still hit the jackpot. Fuck!!
Separate Ways
I'm at Gerstein right now, my favourite UT St. Geroge library...it's just so pretty...^^ Anyway, since I'm at school, might as well talk a lil about it.
I'm so confused as to what program to go into next year. Honestly, with my GPA, I am pretty much guaranteed to get into anything I want (that is, if I don't bomb the exams). You see, the reason why I came to U of T is for its molecular genetics & molecular biology program (lol I just love saying it, the title's so long, it sounds super impressive...xD)...if I remember correctly, it's the only university in Ontario that has the program. Therefore, ever since gr. 11, when I decided that I'd like to work in the field of genetics, I've been dying to get here. And I did. Now that I'm in though, I've been hearing lots of bad things about the program. It's hard, it's not as interesting as you think it is, it'll kill you, blah blah blah. I really don't know what to do now...should I suffer through something of which I truly enjoy (at least I think so now, don't know what would happen when I actually study it)...or pick something else that is more widely-accepted & popularly termed as easy?? I seriously have no idea...my plan right now is to apply for both MGB & immunology, & see what happens there. If both take me...I think my hair will be gone by the next week due to excessive pulling...x_x
I'm at Gerstein right now, my favourite UT St. Geroge library...it's just so pretty...^^ Anyway, since I'm at school, might as well talk a lil about it.
I'm so confused as to what program to go into next year. Honestly, with my GPA, I am pretty much guaranteed to get into anything I want (that is, if I don't bomb the exams). You see, the reason why I came to U of T is for its molecular genetics & molecular biology program (lol I just love saying it, the title's so long, it sounds super impressive...xD)...if I remember correctly, it's the only university in Ontario that has the program. Therefore, ever since gr. 11, when I decided that I'd like to work in the field of genetics, I've been dying to get here. And I did. Now that I'm in though, I've been hearing lots of bad things about the program. It's hard, it's not as interesting as you think it is, it'll kill you, blah blah blah. I really don't know what to do now...should I suffer through something of which I truly enjoy (at least I think so now, don't know what would happen when I actually study it)...or pick something else that is more widely-accepted & popularly termed as easy?? I seriously have no idea...my plan right now is to apply for both MGB & immunology, & see what happens there. If both take me...I think my hair will be gone by the next week due to excessive pulling...x_x
3.17.2003
Narcissus Wannabe
I'm getting sick and tired of how people (mostly non-Ayu fans) keep calling the "RAINBOW" PV "lesbo action". First of all, use the right term - "lesbo" is derogatory. Secondly, I consider that conclusion superficial and ignorant. The two Ayu's are supposed to represent her past & her present. It's reflective of the "A BALLADS" cover...the idea is that the good things that happen now can "heal" the hardships of the past...or that, as time passes, we grow stronger, & that allows us to look back & let go of some of the stigmas that we once had. This is also related to the lyrics of the song in which she sings "no rain, can't get the rainbow"...everything is interconnected. It really is no surprise that most people who seem to have a problem with the PV are those who have very little knowledge of Ayu. Some even go to the extent of calling her "self-loving" or that she's trying to pull a gimmick. Maybe both are true, but hey, who doesn't love oneself?? And what's wrong with generating some talks when you're in the ent-business??
I'm getting sick and tired of how people (mostly non-Ayu fans) keep calling the "RAINBOW" PV "lesbo action". First of all, use the right term - "lesbo" is derogatory. Secondly, I consider that conclusion superficial and ignorant. The two Ayu's are supposed to represent her past & her present. It's reflective of the "A BALLADS" cover...the idea is that the good things that happen now can "heal" the hardships of the past...or that, as time passes, we grow stronger, & that allows us to look back & let go of some of the stigmas that we once had. This is also related to the lyrics of the song in which she sings "no rain, can't get the rainbow"...everything is interconnected. It really is no surprise that most people who seem to have a problem with the PV are those who have very little knowledge of Ayu. Some even go to the extent of calling her "self-loving" or that she's trying to pull a gimmick. Maybe both are true, but hey, who doesn't love oneself?? And what's wrong with generating some talks when you're in the ent-business??
3.16.2003
+175
So this is it...we are buying a new house. Came kinda quickly I think...even though my parents have been claiming that we'll be moving for A LONG TIME (like nearly 2 years), I didn't think that they'd see the right house, & there goes 5000 bucks. But wow, a big room with a balcony facing a park...I feel like a prince. xD
So this is it...we are buying a new house. Came kinda quickly I think...even though my parents have been claiming that we'll be moving for A LONG TIME (like nearly 2 years), I didn't think that they'd see the right house, & there goes 5000 bucks. But wow, a big room with a balcony facing a park...I feel like a prince. xD
3.14.2003
Reversal
It is often said that your future lies ahead of you. Today though, mine was right behind my back. My past, on the other hand, sat clearly in front of my myopic eyes.
It is often said that your future lies ahead of you. Today though, mine was right behind my back. My past, on the other hand, sat clearly in front of my myopic eyes.
3.11.2003
Game Over
I was wrong...I was so wrong. I can't believe there's actually something you can say that hurts me more than "I'm taken"...God (no pun intended), you really pushed it. I guess I am more religious than I thought I was...& the omens were for real huh??
I was wrong...I was so wrong. I can't believe there's actually something you can say that hurts me more than "I'm taken"...God (no pun intended), you really pushed it. I guess I am more religious than I thought I was...& the omens were for real huh??
3.09.2003
Hit The Sac
Oh, here's another thing that my parents love doing - asking me "not sleeping yet??" when it's only 11 at night. EVERY single night. O_o
Oh, here's another thing that my parents love doing - asking me "not sleeping yet??" when it's only 11 at night. EVERY single night. O_o
Starvin' Marvin
There's one thing that my parents love doing - feeding me. Honestly, 70% of the food found in my fridge (which is SUPER packed for a 3-people household...there is never, EVER, free space) are meant to sustain my life. I may eat a lot for a 130-lb "adolescent" (sooner or later I'll have to ditch this title, so please let me have it for now), but not THAT much. My dad, especially, always fears that I'll starve to death in this tiny white house of ours. Come on pop, I'm 19, & I actually know how to cook, so I don't see where that paranoia comes from. And it's just not comforting when you realize you have insecure parents that never feel they are feeding you enough. Now that's scary...I think I need some snacks to make me feel better. <chomps on chips>
There's one thing that my parents love doing - feeding me. Honestly, 70% of the food found in my fridge (which is SUPER packed for a 3-people household...there is never, EVER, free space) are meant to sustain my life. I may eat a lot for a 130-lb "adolescent" (sooner or later I'll have to ditch this title, so please let me have it for now), but not THAT much. My dad, especially, always fears that I'll starve to death in this tiny white house of ours. Come on pop, I'm 19, & I actually know how to cook, so I don't see where that paranoia comes from. And it's just not comforting when you realize you have insecure parents that never feel they are feeding you enough. Now that's scary...I think I need some snacks to make me feel better. <chomps on chips>
3.06.2003
Fire!
I used to despise girls who run, in pairs, just to catch a glimpse of their crush. And BJ, thanks to you, I felt like one of them tonight. xD
I used to despise girls who run, in pairs, just to catch a glimpse of their crush. And BJ, thanks to you, I felt like one of them tonight. xD
3.04.2003
Four Degrees Of Separation
I think I lost my mind during my chem lab today. I was screaming at everything...especially that stupid melting point apparatus.
I wanted to scream at you the most though. Just fuck off if you have nothing to say.
I think I lost my mind during my chem lab today. I was screaming at everything...especially that stupid melting point apparatus.
I wanted to scream at you the most though. Just fuck off if you have nothing to say.
3.03.2003
Extreme Measures
Late last night, just before I fell asleep, I decided to write my own lil review of the 2 EXILE albums today...and here it is. ^^
"our style" - Upbeat and lively is how I would describe this album. In general, I think it's good music to shake you booty to, given the right place and time. =P The dance tracks are awesome, "Fly Away", "eyes in maze", "Heart Beats" (after many listens, it still reminds me of *NSYNC's "Tell Me, Tell Me...Baby"), just to name a few. "Style" though, really caught my attention. I'm growing to like the song a lot, despite the "disturbing" PV. =P The ballads, on the other hand, oh Lord...<shakes head> Not that they are bad, but I think their composers tried too hard to incoporate "black elements" into the songs yet failed miserably. "Your eyes only" is probably the only exception...it is truly a classic, even though it's not really what I'd consider a ballad...
"Styles Of Beyond" - There's a reason why I bought this album the morning (that's right, I discovered EXILE at 04:00) after I got to peview some of the songs. "We Will" pretty much cleared all debates on whether I should buy the CD or not...it's just that good. It's totally my type of song...a ballad that leaves you yearn for more, as if something's missing, but you know there isn't, because everything's just so perfect...so far only two male-sung ballads have been able to do that for me; one is The Gospellers' "Yakusoku no kisetsu", & the other is "We Will". Just as I thought it couldn't get any better, came "song for you"...another ballad that rocked my world. It sounded awfully familiar at first listen, & I still can't figure out what other song it sounds like. Either way, I ended up driving like mad (while it's snowing) to P-Mall just to buy the one single copy left (since EXILE ain't that popular, I think MHQ only had one for each store), & when I got home, popped it into the CD player, wow, was I stunned...there were EVEN MORE good songs!! "Kiss you", "wishes", "Hane 1/2", "Distance", so on...all fantastic ballads, completely compensated for the lack of good ballads on the last album (yet I didn't know back then, since I listened to "our style" second). Damn, I even listened to the "Intro" over & over again (it's really cool..xD). Though as expected, more ballads meant less dance tracks, & for the few that's on the album, they're also of less "booty-shaking" quality. I only like "Sandcastles", "Release yourself" (barely), & "Cross~never say die~".
To sum it all up, I think "Styles Of Beyond" is very easy-listen, the typical sound that every J-Pop fan loves (as shown by the #1 position on the weekly Oricon when it came out). "our style" though, is more genuine and fitting for the group. After all, they are supposed to be a "dance unit"...yet for the second album, they don't really have enough tracks to carry that title...at least I don't think so. It's nice to see how the 2 albums contain different sounds though, so that I can switch back and forth without getting bored of either. Nice. =D
P.S. "our style" gets bonus points for having a "cool" cover, while "Styles Of Beyond" gets 0 for its disasterous (literally) CD jacket...=P (there's a theme though...it's supposed to match their latest DVD cover)
P.P.S. What's with the group's obsession with the word "style"??
P.P.P.S. This is the longest entry I've written to date...go me!!
Late last night, just before I fell asleep, I decided to write my own lil review of the 2 EXILE albums today...and here it is. ^^
"our style" - Upbeat and lively is how I would describe this album. In general, I think it's good music to shake you booty to, given the right place and time. =P The dance tracks are awesome, "Fly Away", "eyes in maze", "Heart Beats" (after many listens, it still reminds me of *NSYNC's "Tell Me, Tell Me...Baby"), just to name a few. "Style" though, really caught my attention. I'm growing to like the song a lot, despite the "disturbing" PV. =P The ballads, on the other hand, oh Lord...<shakes head> Not that they are bad, but I think their composers tried too hard to incoporate "black elements" into the songs yet failed miserably. "Your eyes only" is probably the only exception...it is truly a classic, even though it's not really what I'd consider a ballad...
"Styles Of Beyond" - There's a reason why I bought this album the morning (that's right, I discovered EXILE at 04:00) after I got to peview some of the songs. "We Will" pretty much cleared all debates on whether I should buy the CD or not...it's just that good. It's totally my type of song...a ballad that leaves you yearn for more, as if something's missing, but you know there isn't, because everything's just so perfect...so far only two male-sung ballads have been able to do that for me; one is The Gospellers' "Yakusoku no kisetsu", & the other is "We Will". Just as I thought it couldn't get any better, came "song for you"...another ballad that rocked my world. It sounded awfully familiar at first listen, & I still can't figure out what other song it sounds like. Either way, I ended up driving like mad (while it's snowing) to P-Mall just to buy the one single copy left (since EXILE ain't that popular, I think MHQ only had one for each store), & when I got home, popped it into the CD player, wow, was I stunned...there were EVEN MORE good songs!! "Kiss you", "wishes", "Hane 1/2", "Distance", so on...all fantastic ballads, completely compensated for the lack of good ballads on the last album (yet I didn't know back then, since I listened to "our style" second). Damn, I even listened to the "Intro" over & over again (it's really cool..xD). Though as expected, more ballads meant less dance tracks, & for the few that's on the album, they're also of less "booty-shaking" quality. I only like "Sandcastles", "Release yourself" (barely), & "Cross~never say die~".
To sum it all up, I think "Styles Of Beyond" is very easy-listen, the typical sound that every J-Pop fan loves (as shown by the #1 position on the weekly Oricon when it came out). "our style" though, is more genuine and fitting for the group. After all, they are supposed to be a "dance unit"...yet for the second album, they don't really have enough tracks to carry that title...at least I don't think so. It's nice to see how the 2 albums contain different sounds though, so that I can switch back and forth without getting bored of either. Nice. =D
P.S. "our style" gets bonus points for having a "cool" cover, while "Styles Of Beyond" gets 0 for its disasterous (literally) CD jacket...=P (there's a theme though...it's supposed to match their latest DVD cover)
P.P.S. What's with the group's obsession with the word "style"??
P.P.P.S. This is the longest entry I've written to date...go me!!
Attempted Suicide
Okay, does NEGATIVE THIRTY-SIX DEGREES mean diddly squat to you people?? Today, despite the bitterly cold weather, there were still some who wore no more than a fall jacket + a hooded sweat. Now come on, that's supposed to keep you warm?? Nobody's gonna pity you when you choose to stand buck-naked in a fridge ya know.
Okay, does NEGATIVE THIRTY-SIX DEGREES mean diddly squat to you people?? Today, despite the bitterly cold weather, there were still some who wore no more than a fall jacket + a hooded sweat. Now come on, that's supposed to keep you warm?? Nobody's gonna pity you when you choose to stand buck-naked in a fridge ya know.
3.01.2003
Still Shining
This page is starting to look real draggy, since it's full of nothing but words...here's a screenshot from AMR's latest PV to spice things up...
![[shine more]](shinemore.jpg)
For a while there, I almost forgot she has a 4-year-old son. O_o
This page is starting to look real draggy, since it's full of nothing but words...here's a screenshot from AMR's latest PV to spice things up...
For a while there, I almost forgot she has a 4-year-old son. O_o
No More Words
Oh my God it's happening again. This time, even closer to the real incident. Early this morning I dreamt of some sort of train in Taiwan...I don't remember the exact colour, but I remember it having a white band on the sides. Just as I thought it was extremely weird, I read this.
My breath literally stopped when I saw the news on TV.
Oh my God it's happening again. This time, even closer to the real incident. Early this morning I dreamt of some sort of train in Taiwan...I don't remember the exact colour, but I remember it having a white band on the sides. Just as I thought it was extremely weird, I read this.
My breath literally stopped when I saw the news on TV.
