8.31.2002
Worst Case Scenario
There are three things that I really hate: excessive heat, boredom, & fatigue. Today, thanks to my parents, I got to enjoy all three simultaneously. No way in hell am I gonna go to CNE with them again (the sad thing is...I think I said this last year). =P
Kakeru @ 23:24 +



8.28.2002
No More Waiting
...for my schedule. It arrived today. Apparently, it's just a print out of what's on the
ROSI site. Seems like my paranoia went wasted.
...for Ayu's new song "Voyage". Just heard a complete preview. "Excellent" is an understatement...it's definitely one of her best. Actually...more like one of THE best. =P
Kakeru @ 12:06 +



8.27.2002
Ring My Bell
My heart's now beating uncontrollably. Damnit. Seems like I've been having a lot of special encounters with the phone lately.
Kakeru @ 22:03 +



8.26.2002
Wrong Number, Dumbass
Woke up at 10 something today...so early 'cause some stupid person mistakenly called my house. Here's the conversation...
"Hello??"
"Hi, is your dad there??"
"Er...no he's not available right now."
"Oh okay. Can you please tell him to call Ernestine when he's done with the stereo??" (amazing how I caught the name while half asleep)
"What??"
"The stereo."
"What stereo??"
"...is your dad named Fizo??"
"NO." (I was SO tempted to say hell no)
"Sorry, wrong number."
You know, it'd be nice for you to AT LEAST address the person you're looking for first. Never assume that the person who picks up the phone is your intended receiver...'cause that's usually not the case. =P
Kakeru @ 11:48 +



Still Waiting
...for my first year schedule to arrive. Anxiously. I need to check out where my classes are, damnit.
...for my first biology class in 2 years. It's been too long since I've heard a teacher name the term "oogenesis".
...for my braces to come off. I can't believe I was stupid enough to say I'd wait one more month. I must've been on weed.
...for ideas to revamp my Ayu site. It looks butt-ugly.
...for another e-mail from
SomeLikesYou.com. So I can have more hints to guess who that retard is without having to name other innocent individuals. So it can FINALLY stop spamming me. So I can go out with a real person (bye bye Ian my imaginary friend).
...for winter to come. My urge for snowboarding is on its way to a maximum. If there actually is one, that is.
...for my chance to watch a live taping of "Friends". Don't think that'll happen though since the show will be ending in a year. <sigh>
...for Windows to stop giving me the "system has recovered from a serious error" message. I'm annoyed. You've done your job. Now stop.
Kakeru @ 01:30 +



8.25.2002
My Life In Blog
After a night of serious thinking & hours of hard work, I finally got this new layout working. Yes, I've realized that this is the second time I changed the template ever since I became a blogger two weeks ago. I suppose that illustrates my swiftness in preference-alteration. Or, in simpler words, my inability to be happy with the same thing for long. Probably why I am still single...<ahem> Anyway, after reading a few of my friends' blogs, I am starting to feel that I should write about my personal life more often, rather than just random babblings on the current world. Well, I'd love to make this into a journal-like blog, but here comes another reason why I hate being a perfectionist (for those who never read any, check the
08.20 entry). Maybe it's a fetish, or maybe I'm just crazy (this one more likely), but I've always felt that writing about oneself isn't "professional" enough (note to self: "this is a blog, not a presidential election campaign, you retard"). So whenever I start talking like "dear diary", I delete the post. Yup I've done that before...many times. That's why this blog has so few entries, even though I'm probably one of the most talkative (& hyper) person you'll ever see.
Oh my God the Cookies are on TV. And you thought Morning Musume was bad enough. <shiver>
Kakeru @ 20:14 +



8.24.2002
The Great Dividing Range
Today, while I was having breakfast, I saw something that was more mind-boggling than the mountains in Australia. 70% of the tables carried the same trait: two to four members of a family sitting opposite each other, with hardly any form of communication going on. The two ends of the table were separated by a paper wall...otherwise known as the newspaper. It never occurred to me that this often undermined form of media actually carries such great power. I mean, you'd always hear parents yelling at their kids for watching TV during dinner, but reading the news?? Now THAT is definitely newsworthy. Even though the ones I saw today were mostly adults, it still surprised me how each member of a family manages to be reading something. I guess when one starts submerging him/herself into the paper world, the others unwillingly follow, just to keep themselves from looking bored or idiotic. Might as well read about places you'll never go to in the travel section. Or the business page when you don't even know the difference between a bear & a bull (duh...they are different animals!! O_o). The good thing is, whether or not you're paying full attention, you more or less learn something new about the world ("Hey, I didn't know you can use cremated human remains to make diamonds!!"). The bad thing is, you have less time to know your loved ones ("When does school start?? Oh I asked 3 times already??"). =P
Kakeru @ 13:03 +



8.20.2002
No Perfectionist Is Perfect
I hate being a perfectionist...it is so friggin' annoying. It's annoying me right now, as a matter-of-fact. I can't wear a watch that has scratches (bye bye to my adidas whom I've worn for only 2 weeks). I can't enjoy a CD if its plastic wrapping isn't flawless. I don't study if my notes are messy. I rewrite a whole page if I think the title is not centered. I edit every single blog entry for at least 10 times before I would leave it in peace...x_x I don't know what happened, but I was never like this before I went to high school. More proof that
Campbell is indeed a bad influence. Parents, don't let your kids go there. I mean, they may say it's full of smart people & all, but the price is too heavy. They either become zombies who never sleep or the exact opposite, party-boys & girls who spend most of their time drinking/smoking/raving. Alright I guess I'm getting a lil off topic here...my point is, being a perfectionist is a flaw itself. So as the title of this blog says, no perfectionist can ever be perfect unless he/she drops the habit...but by then, the term "perfectionist" will no longer apply. What a pathetic paradox...
Kakeru @ 18:45 +



o(O_o)o...
A too-sunny-for-its-own-good weather.
An ineffably boring father.
A desperate attempt by his son to fake "interest".
A long line-up outside the health department.
A binder full of biology notes.
A bunch of retards who simply can't read.
A teenager who "accidentally" swore during the excruciating wait.
A glare from his mother.
An embarrassing look projected through her eyes.
A song that I hate on the radio.
A singer that boldy declares "she will always love you".
A fat naked man on TV.
An extremely mind-numbing day.
Kakeru @ 16:31 +



8.14.2002
Intelligence And Knowledge Don't Equate
"Smart does not equal to knowledgeable"...that's my favourite quote. It is also one that I'm very proud of, as over and over again it has been proven to be correct. Like today, I read from the newspaper that the HK version of "Who wants to be a millionaire?" invited 7 "10A" HKCEE students to join the show. Well apparently, some of them may be exceptional in terms of what they learn in school, yet when it comes to the world, they hardly know anything. Mind you, 3, that's T-H-R-E-E, outta the 7 ended up with $0. That's right, meaning they answered the FIRST question wrong. I suppose these kids don't even read the newspaper...all they do everyday is study, study, & oh, study. Call me judgemental but that's mostly likely the case. On the other hand, there were 2 students who played an outstanding game, winning $250,000 & $60,000 HKD respectively. One of them is in fact from an underprivileged family who is currently receiving financial aid from the government. Now you see, these are the people whom I think deserve the money. They work hard, they do well in school, they care about the world, & eventually they get their reward. I hope this show will teach most parents a lesson...sometimes, knowing the world is more important than knowing the school.
(Just a note...for those who are reading this, you might think that I have a grudge against "brainers". Well sadly, I don't...'cause I'm one myself. My point is that being one of them makes me realize what it takes to be truthfully "smart"...& it is usually harder than you think.)
Kakeru @ 15:53 +



Jury, Hung
Last night, before I fell asleep, I suddenly thought of the idea of "reasonable doubt". What I had in mind, really, was the different jury systems. For instance, in Hong Kong, the jury of a criminal trial consists of 7 members, whereas here in Canada we have 12. When it comes to murder cases, in HK it only takes a majority of 5 outta 7 to come to a conviction. Under the Canadian system, however, the decision must be unanimous - meaning that all 12 members must agree on the same verdict. Now I suppose this is indeed a more direct (& absolute??) way of showing that there exists no reasonable doubt, since theoratically, "everyone" believes that the accused has committed the crime. Or is that so?? 'Cause sometimes, when the jury cannot come to an agreement, members of opposing sides tend to spend more time on persuading each other rather than discussing details of the case. In some cases even, there needs to be no persuasion, as some members will simply give in under the frightening idea of segregation (that's when they're separated from family, work, & EVERYTHING ELSE on this Earth). Either way, when things really don't work out, the jury becomes what we call a "hung jury"...otherwise known as a waste of taxpayers' time and money. Now, putting all these factors in mind, is our system efficient?? Or more importantly, just?? Is the concept of "beyond reasonable doubt" still being served"?? One might say, "well, then I guess the system in Hong Kong is better "...yet I do not agree. When the verdict is reached based on a majority and not a unanimity, how is that just?? Doesn't that mean there IS reasonable doubt??
This reminds me of what I read about the Jim Williams case in John Berendt's Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil. In one of the trials, there was an old lady in the jury. She boldly stuck to her belief of Williams' innocence & claimed that he should not be convicted. While the other 11 members tried hard enough to change her mind, she never did. As a result, the judge had to call a new trial since it was impossible for the jury to come to a verdict. Isn't that ridiculous?? I'm not saying that the old lady is wrong for sticking to her beliefs...but I think the court's time is too precious to be wasted like that. While billions of cases are still waiting in line to be heard, a billion others are created simply because of occurrences like these. Now, just don't get me started on the appeal system...<grrr...>
Kakeru @ 12:09 +



8.13.2002
A Happy Ending?
Hmmm now this relates to my Miss HK complaint...I just read from the newspaper today that even though she lost, Cerina Da Graca is already given a job in TVB. She'll be one of the new hosts of "Jade Solid Gold" & also the emcee of several big shows. Apparently this was all prepared early on, even before the results were out...so are you telling me that the pageant wasn't fixed?? Ha!! Ah well I'm just happy to know that we'll keep seeing Cerina on TV...'cause she sure lights up the screen...=P
Kakeru @ 13:06 +



8.12.2002
Dreaming I Was Dreaming...
Just before I woke up this morning, I had a dream in which I was singing hiro's
"love you" in my car...& the scary part was that I could sing it w/ exact lyrics, something I simply cannot do when I'm awake. Hmmm...I guess dreams are always weird. I also dreamt that I was cleaning my washroom with a new vacuum cleaner...it was those fancy ones (Hoover??) that has a water-spraying system, making cleaning much easier (wooohooo!!). Oh & I also jumped into the tub when it was full of water...but instead of bathing in there, I started scrubbing it...O_o Erm okay this is getting too bizarre. Blog again later.
Kakeru @ 11:51 +



8.11.2002
The Miss Hong Kong Tragedy
Yay my first post on blogger...how exciting...=P (how sarcastic) Anyway, here's my chance to complain about the new Miss HK. I don't wanna sound too superficial or anything, but really, she is NOWHERE close to pretty. She might be very smart, but she definitely does not have the outer beauty that it takes to be Miss HK. Ya I know I know, inner beauty should be everything, I agree with that too (well more or less), but honestly, what kinda impression can she make of HK when she doesn't look decent herself?? Well fine, I guess she's not butt-ugly, & she may seem stylish to some (er)...but I still think that it was mistaken to take the throne away from #20, Miss Cerina Da Graca, who was the favourite from day 1. Honestly I think she's smart, cute, & pretty (and mind you, she can ALSO act + speak 4 languages). So if she can't win, I don't think anybody else deserves to. Miss Victoria Jolly (#19) is alright also...I was expecting either her or Cerina to win the crown. Well unfortunately, neither of them did. And how disappointing that was. Great year ended with not-so-great results.
However, I still wish that Miss Tiffany Lam can make a good representation of Hong Kong (even though she doesn't even live there)...& with her intelligence, she probably can. I guess all we can do now is look forward to next year's Miss HK...
(Seriously, I was really upset this morning when I found out the results. It's been years since I actually had a favourite in the run...the last one was Sonija Kwok in 1999, & she won!! Then for the next 2 years, the girls just weren't that appealing. So I didn't really care about the pageant...until this year when Miss Da Graca caught my attention. Even though everybody had their favourites as #5 & #19, I've always thought #20 would breakthrough. She didn't disappoint me by winning "Miss Photogenic" & almost all the awards afterwards. Yet she just couldn't win the big one. <sigh>)
Kakeru @ 22:14 +


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